Do you know what a broken heart feels like?
You can't catch your breath,
And tears are always poised to fall.
It's like a hollowing feeling in your heart
...Like someone is carving away a hole in you.
There is a constant cold burning there that pains,
And radiates down to your fingertips and toes.
If the blow to the heart is strong enough you can feel it ,
Physically cracking and shatter and fall to pieces ,
Landing in the pit of your stomach where it churns ,
And fools you into thinking you're never hungry.
The weight of the tears and the pieces makes your head heavy ,
And your mind dizzy with frosted nostalgic scenes that replay and plunge the knife ,
Further and further into what is left of your lonely hollowed heart.
Thoughts of blame and self hatred wrap around and suffocate your consciousness.
There is a sharp stabbing and twisting in your chest, like a knife wound, always.
It is lonely and inconsolable, no words or hugs or kisses or band aids ,
Or pleas and cries and urges for your wellness can heal it.
Only trust can.
Only grace can.
Only love can.